Jesus said: 'I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, that unless a person is born again (anew, from above), he can't ever see (know, be acquainted with, and experience) the kingdom of God.
John 3:3 Amplified Bible

Do you want to be acqainted with God, do you want to 'experience' God, do you want to know God, do you want eternal life, do you want real peace? Do you want forgiveness and everlasting life?
Then come before Him and let this Jesus into your life by His Holy Spirit and be born again. It's not complicated, we can come as we are. We're all only one simple heartfelt prayer away from entering Gods Kingdom. He loves us all and is still waiting for us, but it's up to us.